teenrebellion | homo 🎶 nahida + kyoko

[ ......... ]

I mean for them it's a little complicated, but they're not exactly an example of a standard relationship, you know? Fei Du-san is kind of an idiot.

[ sighs. ]

There's tsunderes, I guess? But most romantic relationships aren't based on that or on hating each other, and they really shouldn't be. That's not healthy.

Edited 2023-08-02 17:44 (UTC)

[I can't argue about Fei Du.

To Nahida, who might not know this term:]

A tsundere is someone who has cold and even hostile personality towards another person before gradually showing a warm and caring side over time.

What are they supposed to be based off of?

[well, since kazuki is saying that and kyoko is not disagreeing, she just nods.]

So it's the same thing as ào jiāo? Shen Qingqiu told me a little about that. [she has learned so many different things from sqq and that's probably also part of why her understanding of love is warped tbh] The first few books I read about it made it seem like love is something that makes your heart flutter all the time. That seems like it would be a little uncomfortable, though...

[ it takes a second because he's not chinese but the word is vaguely familiar. ]

...Yeah, I think it's more or less the same.

I think love is different for every person? And even for the same person, they can feel love for different people in different ways. But the way that most people think of it is the heart flutters. And yeah, it can get a little uncomfortable sometimes, but it's supposed to be uncomfortable in a good way?

[ taps chin. how to explain. ]

It's like... getting nervous to see them, but excited at the same time. And being happy when they're happy, just for no other reason than they're in a good mood. Wanting to spend as much time with them as you can, not necessarily doing anything, but just to be with them. In the best examples, it'd be just like being best. friends, but... deeper, you know?

[It's a familiar sounding word, but Kyoko doesn't know it for certain. She's willing to defer to Kazuki on this one.]

Uncomfortable in a good way...? I've never felt uncomfortable around my friends. [Then again, she rarely feels uncomfortable at all? So she might not be the best person to consider.]

I'm not sure there's too much of a difference between friendship and romance. What do you mean by deeper?

[thinks about how we were having a cute conversation about romance before everyone fucking died

anyway, nahida's expression is a little perplexed, because a lot of that does sound like friendship, or at least like things she's already used to feeling. minus the heart fluttering, anyway.

but if that's not necessary for it to be love, necessarily -

Am I in love and I just didn't realize it?]

I haven't felt uncomfortable either, but... I've felt most of those other things.

I don't think you feel uncomfortable around anyone? [ kyoko, that is. ] But it's more like... nerves. You want them to like you, too, right? So you might try to do things that you wouldn't around friends that would make them like you more. You shouldn't lie or pretend to be something you're not, but you might still try to act differently to make them notice.

Also, I'm not qualified to tell you if you're love. [ just saying! ] I've never been in love myself, either, so it's not like I have personal experience? I've just had, like, crushes and stuff.

But I don't know. They say the person you love should also be your friend, and the person you trust most - or at least one of the people you trust most. Maybe you don't always get along, but you should always be able to communicate why you're upset to each other with full honesty, or it can't really work. ...Which is also a thing in friendship, but when you're in love you're supposed to want to spend your life with the other person. Share everything, you know?

[I feel uncomfortable around Wolfwood after killing him. Is that different? I didn't feel uncomfortable with him before.

Thoughtfully hums. Has she ever done changed how she's acted? She doesn't think so. If she does something it's only because she wants to do it for herself.]

You deserve to be in love one day. [Factually. (Personally she just wants him to be happy.)]

It seems like the line between romance and friendship is blurry. [My life is... Considering how it is right now, it's probably better not to share it with anybody? She's so busy and she'll probably continue to be for some time.]

[I feel a little uncomfortable around Valerie sometimes now but I don't think that means I'm in love with her... that would be awkward.]

Mhm, you do. And anyone you love will be very lucky that you love them. [she is an unapologetic kazuki stan and supports his happiness.] ...love doesn't sound so confusing when you explain it like this.

[it? seems so normal? when kazuki describes it???]

Okay first of all, being uncomfortable around someone you killed is way different than the kind of nerves you get from having a crush or being in love. Second of all, don't turn this around on me?

[ embarrassing!!!!! ]

But yeah. The line can be blurry, and there's nothing wrong with that. It's just... something you feel. It's hard to explain because it doesn't really make sense all the time, and it's always different for different people. Love isn't really supposed to be a logical thing.

[You don't usually have to confront the people you've killed after you've killed them...]

We can hope for your happiness.

[She can at least identify the issue at hand.]

That's why we're having a problem with it. It's just... a feeling? Is that correct?

From some of what I've heard and from some of the things I've read, it seemed like it might not be that different, although it did also seem really weird to me... but, Kyoko's right. We want you to be happy!

[she needs to not take literature recs from sqq maybe. his taste in tropes.........

anyway, yeah, she nods.]

Feelings are extremely difficult to put into words, and even harder to understand if you haven't experienced them yourself... [she sighs] I read books to try, but I guess there are so many perspectives on it that I just got more confused.

Um... Thanks? But I'm only eighteen. There's plenty of time for that in the future.

Anyway, I'm going to be honest with you guys, I don't think most of the people here are really in a good place to have a healthy romantic relationship with anyone. Emphasis on the "healthy."

[ he nods at them both. ]

Yeah, it's a feeling. And you can guess what to expect? But you don't always know when you're the one feeling it, because it's not always the same.

...And books are a little... exaggerated? No matter if they make it a good or a bad thing to be in love. They're for entertainment, so they're not always realistic.

You have your whole life ahead of you.

[Thinks about what a clownshow it's been from the beginning and considers how healthy any of these people would be in a relationship.]

Who do you think is the most healthy in a relationship? [From the extremely slim pickings we have here.]

Hmm... So the books aren't always going to portray it accurately. Some of them feel like they aren't particularly good relationships to begin with either. [It's for the romantic drama, but she doesn't get that.]

...I guess being in a situation like this one is not very good for developing healthy romantic relationships.

[lmao. rip to all murdergame ships, i guess.]

Oh... good, that's kind of a relief, though. If love was supposed to be like in Romeo and Juliet, then I would never ever want to fall in love. [thinks about it...] ...although, I guess books about love in Sumeru aren't any less confusing.

[What was it again...? A story about a boy who turns into a cat, and then falls in love with a beautiful cat after going on adventures with a bunch of other cats...? But then he turns back into a human and takes the beautiful cat home to be his pet... I never understood that one, but some people seemed to think it was a really good ending...

(i'm not making this up btw this story got mentioned in the shared sight event it's genshin canon i hate this game)]

I don't know everyone who's in a relationship in this place, so I don't think I can answer that. But I wouldn't say it's impossible to start a healthy relationship here, just... harder, maybe? Because of everything.

Books have a lot of unhealthy relationships because they aren't real, so they don't have to be, you know? People can have all that drama or danger in the stories they read without having to put themselves in that position in real life. It's like a safe way to explore something different that you probably wouldn't want to experience firsthand, because it might be exciting, but it's actually terrible.

And Romeo and Juliet is, like, the worst example of love, no matter how many people talk about it that way. It's a tragedy, not a romance. [ ... ] I don't even want to think about this cat story, either. That's just weird.

[ what the fuck hyv ]

I... suppose I can understand that well enough. [Books aren't real, so they're safe to experience without doing any actual lasting damage to the people who experience them. It's like having a window into a different life, but that's all.]

[Is this really a good ending to a story? This seems so complicated... Is he still into this beautiful cat? Emotions are so difficult, does the boy want to be a cat again? Wouldn't that be a better ending? Or... why was he even a cat in the first place?]

Edited 2023-08-04 15:45 (UTC)

...I guess with the way books tend to exaggerate things for dramatic effect, and allow people to explore relationship dynamics that aren't healthy... it might be more concerning if you started a relationship with someone and it seemed like one that came out of a book?

[maybe???

...I don't have any answers to those questions. All I know is that it's a favorite story of one of the scholars from Amurta.]

Yeah, definitely. Not all romances in books are going to be inherently bad? Some of them are pretty good or idealistic examples... [ pretend he names some here. like holes. ] But generally, I'd say that if someone says it's like a book, then it might be something unrealistic, at the very least.

...Why are you invested in this cat book. I would say that's not a good example of romance, it's just creepy.

It's a very strange story.

[I can't help but think about it now.]

Okay... that makes sense. I'll keep it in mind.

[take it as a grain of salt when someone says their relationship will be like something out of a story...]

It just came to mind since I remembered someone liked it... and now I can't stop thinking about it. I'm sorry.

No, it's fine. It's just... a weird story, that's all.

Um. So do you guys have other questions, or was that it? What even got you guys on this topic in the first place?

I was getting misinformation from Rang.

[ That's all on her end. ]

They were also talking about who would be the most marriageable, so I asked what made someone marriageable and got... A lot of strange answers.

First step failed. Never take romantic advice from Rang.

[ he doesn't even know about the vore conversation so he is 100% making an assumption here but he stands by it. ]

...Who was the most marriageable? How did something like that even come up?

[ HELLO? ]

[Looks at Nahida. She was not here for that.]

We were making charts for one of our tasks.

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