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w0 monday

[teenrebellion]

[ muttering to himself as he wanders the ship in search for somewhere comfortable to play guitar -- ]

There's no way this HER-MES thing is serving the purpose they meant it to, right? It's more junk than anything...

[ like any other social media really ]

[egodist]

[honestly if scien has any guess - he just answers idly without looking up from his I.R.I.S. suika game]

It's the Senior Crew chattering amongst themselves.

[teenrebellion]

[ he stops short with a blip of irritation, but mostly ??????? ]

Why them?

[egodist]

[he shrugs]

It may not be this particular Senior Crew. It could also be transmissions from other ships. However I wouldn't be surprised if it's multiple parties unknown to us having their communications broadcasted on accident, and if none of the Junior Crew take responsibility then it stands to reason it must be someone else affiliated with Nut & Bolt or their proceedings.

No?

[teenrebellion]

[ he doesn't want to agree with scien. ]

I guess so. [ glances back at the screen. ] It's a little creepy. It's probably putting our thoughts out there, too.

[egodist]

I wouldn't be surprised.

It's for the best to assume that nothing that you do on board this ship is truly private.

[teenrebellion]

[ a wisp of distaste. ]

I hate that. Some things aren't meant to be public.

[egodist]

A corporation that abducted its new hires and conjured up fake contracts to suggest our compliance probably cares very little for true consent.

[teenrebellion]

No shit. That doesn't mean I have to like it.

w0 friday

[teenrebellion]

[ this is going to be terrible because kazuki is already out here radiating distress and he's only known dahut and luke for a week.

he just stops short when he sees scien, like he wants to say something, but he's afraid of making this even worse. it's already so bad. he's probably the wrong person to handle this guy right now but it doesn't feel right to just leave it, either? ]

I'm... sorry. [ awkward, confused, still very alarmed. ] For... whatever happened to Dahut.

[ he was okay last night, wasn't he? despite what happened to luke... so what went wrong? ]

[egodist]

[it's so bad!! it's literally so fucking bad!! and yet here is scien, right back at the observation room. for someone normally so emotionless it's probably easy to notice the traces of it within him: dissatisfaction, bewilderment, frustration, and then this growing sense of anger. it's not directed toward anyone, not yet.

but when kazuki approaches him, scien's response is the same - he speaks as if it's any other day even though emotionshare is doxxing him bad]

Did you kill him? Did you have anything to do with his death?

If not, save it.

[teenrebellion]

[ he flinches, and there's the tiniest blip of irritation, but it's lost quickly enough. ]

Just trying to be respectful.

...I don't understand why someone would hurt him.

[ but he didn't understand adonis, either, so what else is new. ]

[egodist]

You've never respected me, and Dahut's too dead to hear it.

[HE COULD SAY IT ANY OTHER WAY]

Do you mean besides the fact that he can be mistaken for an easy target? That if someone's curious about my technology, he's be simpler to go after than myself?

Or it could just be some idiot who likes to cause chaos by attacking what looks like a happy-go-lucky teenager to instill fear in the rest of you.

[teenrebellion]

That's not the point.

[ kazuki listens silently, not looking at scien. ]

...I know you're upset, too. [ just noting that before he moves on, shaking his head. ] That's a stupid reason. Even Adonis has bigger goals than that.

[egodist]

Of course I'm upset. [he doesn't bother to shy away from it.] I've lost my assistant.

[and clearly! that's all!!! clearly that's the only thing fucking him up!!]

If there is a bigger goal for the purpose of killing Dahut, I'll hear it. If I decide it's not enough, then the perpetrator must answer to me.

[teenrebellion]

Even you have to think of him as more than just an assistant.

[ that annoyance is crawling back in now, maybe punctuated by his frustration at the situation overall. watching one person die was horrible enough, but this?

...uneasiness settles over him. ]

What are you planning to do?

[egodist]

Of course I do.

[but he doesn't say anything past that.

but even that uneasiness is met with a sense of almost-exasperation. again, the emotion still Isn't Quite Right.]

Despite what you all seem to think of me, I'm a person whose goals are to preserve life. Dahut was, too. Another killing would be useless unless that person intends to take more life, in which case it can't be helped.

w0 saturday

[teenrebellion]

[ a sense of uncertainty precedes kazuki, like he isn't sure if this is the right thing to do or not. but here he is. ]

...Do we get to know why you killed him? Like... did the nanites really screw up, like they were talking about earlier?

[ or is that another thing he won't deign to share. ]

[egodist]

[scien is

horizontal again i'm sorry this man is really splayed out on the ground looking at the ceiling. his emotions are still in that tight little box bundle, but the strongest one that leaks through is this sense of being lost.]

I—

[a pause, and then there's a wave of violence, at which point scien's hand comes up to his own throat]

... I wanted to see his heart.

[his brow furrows after he says it]

[teenrebellion]

[ bro if that ain't the most valid thing in the world right now i too wish to be splayed on the ground

somewhere during that breakdown, kazuki was too shaken up to even think. he's been trying to get that under control, to ball up that anxiety and throw it away, but seeing this? it's hard to fight it. something's still wrong, but he doesn't understand what. ]

That... doesn't sound right. You said it was your technology, didn't you?

[ nothing's adding up. ]

[egodist]

It is, but Dahut modified it in his research. He altered his own Memory Bank and I didn't realize until he could feel more than I could. I....

[his brow furrows again]

I wanted to see it. More than anything.

[teenrebellion]

[ this still feels a little beyond him. ]

Can you say why? Was it just because he altered it somehow?

[egodist]

I wanted to see it for myself. The results of his labor and experimentation.

[teenrebellion]

[ frowning. ]

Okay. If it's his own heart, how did he make the modifications on it? Not - not what he changed, but how could he work on something he needed to live without dying in the first place? He can't just do open heart surgery on himself.

[egodist]

He can.

Or rather, he probably did in our home world. I've already guessed at how it was done—even his version was incomplete, and I know how to make a fully feeling Reliver now based on his findings.